Did that title make you hum a little tune?
I generally try to write about things that will help you as you venture into the world of working motherhood.
Today, I’m just writing to complain.
Okay, not complain, I won’t do that.
I just need to say that I need some sleep.
Owning a business and being a mother has caught up with me. I’m working until midnight, dropping into bed, sleeping fitfully and then waking at 5 AM to start all over again.
Funny thing is, the house is a mess and we could really use some groceries in the fridge. But who has time? (Oh, milk, kids are supposed to drink that, right? I guess I should at least make a pit stop at Ralph’s tonight).
Running a business is tough. I know that it requires a lot of time in the beginning, and I’m a perfectionist so I want things done correctly. Lately I’ve gotten a lot of great jobs with excellent clients that I want to keep. It’s hard to tell them that I’m tired and I didn’t get a chance to do their work.
No, it is impossible; you just don’t reveal your tired state to your client.
Instead, I plug along on gallons of caffeine and with rings beneath my eyes. My kids are fed and clothed and you can see the living room carpet beneath the toys on most days.
Your feet don’t turn black when you walk on my linoleum.
I play tag and hide and seek and take my girls to the park when they are awake.
So, I am not getting much sleep. Time is not on my side, not right now. The thing is, I bet when I do have time on my side, like when my girls are grown and the idea of running a business is not as important as it is right now, I bet then I’ll long for these days. These sleepless days. And I’ll wonder why they had to go so darn fast.
Have a great restful weekend!